Diary Of A Depressed Girl

Diary Of A Depressed Girl

Have you ever woken up and instantly regretted it?

That’s how I feel almost every morning.

I wake up and am overwhelmed with the need to go back to sleep.

To shut the world out.

To escape from reality.

When I can no longer hide beneath my eyelids, I lay there.

I lay there and go over reasons why I need to get up.

All those reasons are minor compared to the eight thousand reasons to stay tucked away in my sheets.

With social anxiety on one shoulder and sadness on the other.

I don’t want to go out and be forced to play happy.

It’s exhausting.

It takes a lot out of me to sit there and be be positive when all these negative triggers are around me.

I can’t.

I don’t want to.

I’m tired of this.

I just want to stay asleep.

Never Have I Ever

Never Have I Ever

Have you guys played the game Never Have I Ever? Well if you haven’t, it’s a game where you go around and say things that you’ve never done and if you have then you put one of your ten fingers down. The person who gets to zero fingers first is the loser! I thought I would do a fun blog post about random things that I’ve never done.

  1. Never have I ever gone skinny dipping.
  2. Never have I ever smoked marijuana.
  3. Never have I ever snuck out in high school.
  4. Never have I ever had a baby.
  5. Never have I ever been out of the country.
  6. Never have I ever went to Universal Studios.
  7. Never have I ever gone sky diving.
  8. Never have I ever swam in the ocean.
  9. Never have I ever played Lacrosse.
  10. Never have I ever been on a Jet Ski.
  11. Never have I ever went tubing.
  12. Never have I ever given CPR.
  13. Never have I ever broken a bone.
  14. Never have I ever went to a professional sports game.
  15. Never have I ever spent more than $22 on shoes.
  16. Never have I ever ditched class in high school.
  17. Never have I ever went to more than 5 college parties.
  18. Never have I ever went on a cruise.
  19. Never have I ever went on a vacation.
  20. Never have I ever went streaking.

Ya’ll are amazing,

Cecilia Marlena

I Like It:

I Like It:

I like it.

I like it when he plays with my hair.

I like it.

I like it when he calls me “Buttercup”.

I like it.

I like it when he quotes my favorite movie.

I like it.

I like it when he jams out to his music.

I like it.

I like it when he kisses me.

I like it.

I like it when he sings songs with me.

I like it.

I like it that he wants to show me his favorite things.

I like it.

I like it that we go on dates.

I like it.

I guess you can say I like him.

25 Date Ideas

25 Date Ideas

Hi guys! I thought I would put together a fun little list of possible date ideas. Hope you enjoy it!

 

  1. Hike
  2. Movies
  3. Zoo/aquarium
  4. Beach/river
  5. Picnic
  6. Movie marathon
  7. Laser Tag
  8. Bowling
  9. Miniature Golf
  10. Stargazing
  11. Concert
  12. Cooking class
  13. Dance lesson
  14. Arcade
  15. Game night
  16. Ice cream
  17. Carnival/fair
  18. Ice Skating/roller skating
  19. Dancing
  20. Club/bar
  21. Play Pool
  22. Waterpark
  23. Sports Game
  24. Road trip
  25. Paint Night

Ya’ll are amazing,

Cecilia Marlena

I’ve Been Feeling Lately…

I’ve Been Feeling Lately…

I’ve been feeling lately…

Well actually I’ve been feeling a lot of things.

I’ve been feeling sad, happy, frustrated, irritated, annoyed, motivated, depressed.

Sad because I miss the guy that I was talking to.

Happy because I’ve made some great friends.

Frustrated because it feels like I can’t do anything right.

Irritated because my dad and I aren’t seeing eye to eye.

Annoyed because I feel there is this perfect mold I’m expected to fit.

Motivated because I’ve joined a gym and have friends to go on that healthy journey with.

Depressed because all of the above.

I Met A Guy

I Met A Guy

I met a guy.

I met a guy that makes me nervous.

I met a guy that makes me laugh.

I met a guy who acts silly.

I met a guy that like going out and doing things.

I met a guy who teaches me things.

I met a guy that makes me want to come out of my shell.

I met a guy who is handsome.

I met a guy who gives me butterflies.

I met a guy I want to continue getting to know.

I met a guy.