Hi you guys! How are you all doing? How are you mentally? How are you physically?
I’m happy to report that I’m doing good. I went to the doctors and we came to the decision that it may be a good idea to double my dosage of meds. As some of you may know with any medication, it may take some time to find the right prescription. I believe we’ve found the right one. Its been about two months and I feel great.
I still have moments where I feel anxious and depressed, but those feelings aren’t overwhelming. I don’t feel the need to crawl into bed and hide from the world. I actually want to go out and do things. I’ve been trying to socialize with people more too!
I hope everyone is in good spirits! If not, feel free to reach out. I’m happy to be there for everyone.
Ya’ll are amazing,
Not literally, but on the inside.
My eyes fill with moisture and I dare a tear to spill.
I freaking dare it.
I double dog dare it.
Have you ever woken up and instantly regretted it?
That’s how I feel almost every morning.
I wake up and am overwhelmed with the need to go back to sleep.
To shut the world out.
To escape from reality.
When I can no longer hide beneath my eyelids, I lay there.
I lay there and go over reasons why I need to get up.
All those reasons are minor compared to the eight thousand reasons to stay tucked away in my sheets.
With social anxiety on one shoulder and sadness on the other.
I don’t want to go out and be forced to play happy.
It takes a lot out of me to sit there and be be positive when all these negative triggers are around me.
I don’t want to.
I’m tired of this.
I just want to stay asleep.