Gym Membership

Gym Membership

Guys!!!

I finally got a gym membership to In-Shape. In-Shape is a gym that is just around the corner from my house. It has all the basic gym machines, workout rooms,  a kids area, a pool and an outdoor workout area too. I’m really excited because I’ve been wanting a gym membership for a while now.

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I went this morning and I felt great afterwards. I did the elliptical, bike, and stair stepper.  I also pulled out a mat and did some ab and leg exercises. I feel as though I accomplished something today, ya know?

My short term goals: go to the gym at least 1o times in the next three weeks, learn the right breathing technique, and try to make it to Zumba class everyday!

My long term goals: Lose 2 pants sizes and be able to run comfortably.

What about you guys? What are your goals? Any advise or exercise tips? I’m all ears.

Ya’ll are amazing,

Cecilia Marlena

 

Pain

Pain

I have this really bad pain in my stomach. I went to the doctors and he said it sounds like it’s a hiatal hernia. He gave me some medicine but the medicine isn’t working. Every time it starts to hurt the pain intensifies. I don’t know what to do. It’s affecting my ability at work. The pain flares up usually when I’m stressed. 

Ow,

Cecilia Marlena 

I DID IT!

I DID IT!

Holla at yo girl for actually going on a run today! 😄

It was uncomfortable and I hated every minute of it but I did it! I’m so proud of myself because I always say I’ll go for a run and then lack the motivation to follow through. 

I woke up today, put a load of laundry in, grabbed my jacket, and hit the pavement. 

-side note: I dropped my phone and now there’s a crack on the screen. I can’t tell if it’s my screen screen or just the glass screen protecter that’s cracked 🙃 but who the heck cares! I went for a Run! 🏃🏻‍♀️

Exercise

Exercise

I don’t know about you guys, but I’m constantly telling myself before I go to bed that I will work out the next day-which I don’t.

I’ve gained about 60 lbs these past two years and I really want to start losing weight. The only problem is I lack the motivation. I mean once I start going I’m good, but lately I’ve been having a hard time just trying to start, ya know?

I need some pointers? Any advice or motivation you can give me?

Ya’ll are amazing,

Cecilia Marlena

 

A Fresh Start

A Fresh Start

I’ve struggled with Depression ever since High School, but my Depression spiked when I went away to college. With the Depression came my overwhelming sense of Social Anxiety. Last Spring semester I withdrew from school due to this. I spent all last summer working two jobs as working on myself. Before returning back to school in the Fall, my best friend moved in with me. I was so excited because who doesn’t want to live in an apartment with their best friend right? I also was prescribed Proxac to help with my symptoms. I was ready for the semester to start, I felt that I had things under control.

With every medication there is a grace period in which your body adjusts to it and some side effects may occur. The Proxac was not my friend however. It completely changed my personality. I had no filter, was insanely irritable, and was angry all the time. Being angry all the time was really hard for me since I’ve never been one to get angry. Sure I’ve been upset and even mad, but never to the state of steam out of my ears angry. I would get angry for no reason and it was like I couldn’t turn it off. My roommate would sigh or something and that would set me off. It was an intense couple of months. I was advised to stop taking the medicine and did so. I’m not in anyway bad mouthing this medicine, just simply saying that it didn’t work for me and I know it works for others and for that I’m glad!

Eventually everything went to how it was before, which included the Depression and Anxiety. Things began to get tough again and I had to get a third job to help pay my bills.  Trying to balance three jobs, cheer, and go to school full time was too much and I feared I was going to return back to my old ways by hurting myself. I met with my student adviser and talked to my family and decided I needed to take some time to work on myself and catch up on my bills. So I moved in with my Dad. I’ve been here for about a month now and I have a job. I’m becoming really depressed again though. I don’t do anything besides work and stay in my room and hangout with my cat. I’m trying really hard not to let it get me down, any suggestions?

Thanks for reading this lengthy post!

Ya’ll are amazing,

Cecilia Marlena